Abandoned my blog more than one month. I'm finally back!
Been busy for the annual event Kung Fu Night and now it's all over!
Exhausted. Sick finally when visited to industries KL last week.
And now sorethroat and coughing non-stop, suffering! urgh...
Need good rest to recover and recharge myself and keep my heart back.
Need good food to pamper myself. Urge to eat all things so damn badly!
My weight has been dropped to 38kg when intensive week training.
And now abit better, add on to 40kg. Remain will be the best.
Jeans and shirts become so loose, need buy new clothes again seriously.

4th semester pass quite fast, going to mid-term soon then semester break.
Sometimes I felt time speed up really fast and it don't wait for anyone.
Got to catch up my homeworks and classes. Can't understand what lecturer taught.
Been skipped classes for first forth week. And now major in finance more worst!





I admitted I fell for someone. But seriously I am now exhausted. Maybe our thinking are not really same. I don't really know what you think. And you don't really know what I want. I did understand we have been busy last time and you were stressed, I don't want to be your burden. I try convinced myself with all the possible reasons everytime. I admit I am the type that need accompany. I thought if a person is important to you, you will make time for her. You never leave time for me, you not even plan to, I didn't even feel you got. I hate you always didn't answer my questions seriously. The way you answer always blur and what I wanted is clear and straight. You always refuse to do what I actually hope you to do with excuse. And what you said and promised to me you not actually did it. I not dare to expect a little more. I am the girl who get jealous easily when you're good with other girls in front of me! You said when is it, means you don't even realized. You can good with other girls just don't in front of me I hate it! I hate it most because you didn't said anything and I don't know where I stand what I mean to you. We were like stranger in front of all people don't you think so?! I hate our ambiguous status. I will do anything just to be with you. But I dono how many times I am disappointed. If by chances your hopes have been disappointed, you learn never to ask for more. I am that type will stay committed as long as you do the same. You never, then I am done. I can't find a reason why I like you, I just do. I can't find a reason why you should like me, its up to you. I liked you. My mistake.

Hope those who see this post don't ask me about what had happened. Don't even mention to me. I just need a place to grumble, its killing me. I cried. But you know what? I sure I won't cry for the same reason next time. I also don't wish to post public but blogspot cant post private. Don't worry, I can take care of myself! Be tough, all of you and me.